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~~Wednesday, October 31, 2007~~

11:50 PM

''You may be deceived

you trust too much,
but

you will live in torment

you don't trust enough.''

Trust is 'FRAGILE'..

Handle with care..

Once its broken..

Might take an eon

to get back

where you stood..

Once in a while,

GOD puts us in situations..

where we are pushed

to our limits..

strangled

and

suffocated..

but..

HE never FAILS

help us back

our feet..

Whatever has happened..

has

a Morale

the end..

Thank God..

Its all

part and parcel

growing up

I guess..

Think m blabbering..

well..

What do you expect..?

You're @ Abee's blog..

(''p)

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~~Saturday, October 27, 2007~~

7:17 PM

What m I doing here

when I have absolutely nothing in my mind..?

I dunno..

Just felt like dropping by

and

here I am..

hmm..

Its a saturday..

Its 7 18 pm

and

the phone is just ringing..

Alrite..I Just answered it

and its my sis..

hmm..

Sister..haha..

Funny eh..

Never thought she ll be here..for me..

Used to think might have as well

been the first and last..

but..oh well..

God has his reasons for his creations and happenings..

Fate..Maybe..

Nowadays I tend to go alot with the flow..

Is that good or bad you may ask..

haha..

Gimme another month and I shall answer that question..

Projects over and all nearly welldone,

now its time to breath in

and

say 'exams around the corner, so time to mug..'

yeah..

not really tensed or nervous..

Just wanna get over with it..

With intense things happening around..

Exams does not seem to be a problem at all..

Not over confidence or anything

Just that this time round..

Motivation level is really high up currently..

haha..

Certain incidents recently have made me realize

never expect anything from anyone

and

never change yourself

coz

your expectations failed..

This is who you are

and

this is who you will be..

Just because people fail to realise that

the spur of the moment..

You don't have to alter your charecters

and

lose your originality

in that process..

Yeah..

Learnt a great deal lot..

haha..

and

It still amuses me to know

that there are certain adorable people out there

who still think of me as a 'duckling'

who still has alot more to go..

haha..

ohboy..

Yeah..

I know I still do..

but

when I think about the path

that I have been through..

Really..

Nothing seems like an hill..

haha..

O0k..

Maybe am sayin this now

coz of the mood

I am in today..

keke..

Never know

what tomorrow holds..

Lets just hope for the best.. :)

For someone

who didn't have much to write,

I think I wrote quite alot..

hehe..

Thats it for now though..

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~~Wednesday, October 24, 2007~~

3:02 PM

Yesterday was time for reminiscence..

4 of us got together after nearly 6 years..

Yeah..

Me, Loggie, Vinod and Naggie..

Roller coaster time man!!

First I met Loggie..

Went to subway for her lunch.

coz

she was only entitled to veggie food

Then proceeded to Long John

coz

naggie had the craving for its food..

Was chatting

when vinod joined us.

He managed to brainwash

us into going to his home.

half way thorough,

we received news that his mom was nt feeling well..

So changed our plans

and

ended up in one of the shelters near his home..

Was sooo windy!

Really felt the urge to fly kite!!

Hiaz,

but my darlings divereted my attention

and

bought me years back..

It was finally catching up session..

From the P1 bullying session

P3 catching 'mating' butterflies season

Teenage depression period..

Hahahaa..

I think we covered almost everything..

and

of course in the end

we were singing and discussing

about

all the heros, heroines,

movies

and

Illaiyaraja to A.R Rahaman!

I had the 'honour'

of reminding them

that the time was near to 9

and

there was a place called home..

haha..

Didnt have the heart to go on separate ways..

Really..

Still felt like there was soo much to talk about...

But then GOd has only gave us 24 hours..

Hiaz..

It was soo heart warming

to be sitting there with childhood friends..

Recapping..Reflecting..

Being amused and surprised

by the path you have travelled

and

for who you are today..

really amazing..

Naggie was saying

that she was going through her Kindergarden report card.

Her teacher had given her remarks like she is slow..

needs to keep up..

put in more effort and so on.

Nagesh laughed saying

that shes one of the very few

who have gotten into NUS from that particular class..

haha..

Its indeed too early to judge a kid at that age.

When we were talking about me..

I realized I have come far..

from who I was..

to what I was becoming

and

thank god for my bestie..

To what I have transformed into today..

Really..Changes..

Everything and anything..

Always filled with changes..

A few years back..

Leaving my house to go out and face the public

seemed like a nightmare..

Now..

haha..

You just ask my friends..LoL.

The 4 of us have really changed..

Our perceptions..

The way we handle things..

yeah..

Thanks to some rocks on our path,

we have been moulded into such forms today..

Forgive and forget

has been what some people

have been telling us recently..

We are willing to forgive

and

yeah with that we will forget you too..

Loggie's lines..

Sounds easy..

We can forget you but not what you did..

The scar and memory that you left..

gosh..

OK..I think I went offtrack..

Thats a problem with most people

I know including me..

I didnt log in with an outline

so I just wandered off..

haha..alright..

Lemme think

is there anything else

I need to pour out..?

hmm..

Aynul had a fall..

yeah..

She' ll get well soon..

She better get well soon..

Exams are around the corner..

So when the time

for

mugging comes

I m gonna make sure

both of us

mug to the core!!

haha..

Ok..

When she reads this

She's gonna go 'into her accent'!!

keke..

and

some plans are going on

regarding an outing..

keke..

sshh!!

Know what..

I wont believe myself

till I am out for that day..

Yeah..

hehe..

okok..

I dont wanna spill any more things at the moment..

So I better get going!!

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~~Sunday, October 21, 2007~~

9:41 PM

Back Into Action!!

Say Aaah!!

Been There for 16 Years..

Gaming!!

Tired..Yet Beaming!!

The 'magnetic' force!!

The Senior Besties!!

Me and Baayi!!

ehem!! Future Baayi..!!

With Relative from India!!

There Goes The day

Happily Ever After...

keke..

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2:59 PM

Overwhelming..

thats the words a bit subtle..

but thats how I felt..

It felt complete..

Almost all the important loved ones

in my life were around me..

gosh...

I don't know what to say..

really..

Nages is back!!

Naggie is back!!

Our friendship flame

felt sooo Vibrant..

She was my surprise..

The hug we gave each other..

The smiles..

The way we clicked bk

as if

we didnt have a break in between..

And

Baayi is back as well..

oh my..

U should have seen me

beaming from ear to ear..

I soo Miss seeing baayi in my home..

with my parents..

was soo glad to hear mommy going..

'not one

but two sons are here

to brighten up the day..'

well of course

the other one was kather..

Merah darling thambhi!!!!

Love u da!!

Love everybody..

haha..

Loggie,Aynul,Akka,Baayi,

katherruuu,Julie

,Nazeerah and new entree shafi..

haha..

thanks for comiung dude!!

and

of course my skool sweeties,

Miki alizeha and her room mate husna!!!

Love each and everyone of you for making the day sooo bright!!!!

its been ages

since

I had so many loved ones under one roof..

That 'magnetic' force..

No words are strong enough..

yeah..really..

Thank God for the moment..

It really made me realize how gifted I am..

These people..

whatever ups and down they have..

We genuinly care for each other..

We are there to share

the ups and downs

despite the steeps and slopes..

Never in my wildest dream

did I imagine

this 'combo' of people will come together..

Be in one room,

laugh their hearts out

and

share the most 'dumb' jokes on earth!!

ehem!!

hehe.. Love ya all..

M really lost for words..

So as usual

I'll Let the pictures do the talking alright!!?

keke..

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2:53 PM

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~~Friday, October 19, 2007~~

9:35 PM

Hmm.

Donno what to say..

Just hope for a better weekend..
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~~Monday, October 15, 2007~~

1:03 AM

This is darn irritating..

I am suppose to be doing my electronic media project..

the due date is 16-10-08..

gosh..

and

I'v only wrote abt 400 plus words..

I need to have at least 2000 words..

and here I am..

unable to concentrate..

Looking at pictures..

That I told myself I wont ever see..

Thinking of things

that am not even suppose to recollect..

gosh..gosh..

I cant seem to do it this time..

Its soo nerve wrecking..

as Loggie suggested,

I m suppose to be taking a short nap now..

I can't even seem to do that..

arrgh..

alrite..its one am..

I have to complete the project by hook or crook..

Sis will be expecting me there tomorow..

So..cant afford to dilly dally..

I better get back

'squeezing juices out of my brain'!!

aargh..

God show some mercy!!!

HELP!!

okok..breath in breath out..

Whoooosh!!

TaTa!!

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p.s: If I happen to score an A for my electronic media module, its a real miracle!! =p

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~~Sunday, October 14, 2007~~

1:35 PM

It did feel different this year..
Kamzy came from KL
to celebrate raya with us..
stayed till Sunday..
Loggie darling..
Loved the way..
U came peeking in my window..
Really didnt expect that.
Missed aynul though..
was soo tempted to call a cabarnd midnyte
&
go all the way
to
telok blangah...
We even started scheming..
but
then due to circumstances..we could not..
missed u darling..
&
then the fire crackers..
usual chaos
&
photo snapping till 430am..
haha..
I have to mention the 12 am choas!
lol!
My darlings made me call up people
&
put them on loud speaker
and
there they went shouting,
'Selamat hari raya!!'
they were like;
just call, whoever picks up we scream!!
hehe..
sweet hearts..
so we ended up calling
aynul's home, sister, dad and a few others..
Sis was stunned as well!!
haha..
of course..
based on what happened to her..
she was in clouds 9 when she came over..
hope everything goes well.
&
LiLi came over on raya as well..
My god!! missed her man!!
hehe..we were all the way chatty...
catching up with things and gossips..
kekeke.
Basically for the whole day,
I had people coming and going.
and
here I was thinking
I'll only see 'crowd' next week
as thats the day
we had booked for the open house!
hmm..
alot of things were going on in the side as well..

Anyway main highlites for the two days would be:

1. last day raya shopping with aynul at geylang and kamani

2.Loggie darling came over at night

3. midnyte make over

4.after midnyte mac door delivery

5.crapping till 4 plus and going to sleep by singing chella peru apple haha esp the way we substituted the apple with other fruits..lol!!

6.Bro and rameesa came over..ehem!!

7.LiLi's arrival

8.Maideen uncle and family!

9.Fire crackers!!

10. heart to heart talk with sis..
well..
wanted to write alot
but
its getting blank
coz I caught a flu.
haha.
So I think I'll let a few pictures
do the work for me now.
hehe..
well..
Will come bk
with more updates and pics soon k..tata!!
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LiLi & Kamzy

Caught Unexpected..

Shy Mommy!! hehe!!

which is the odd one out!! =p

That Patch was due to the cooking prep help!!

Thru the gate!!

ok!! thats what I call 'mommy, daughter' chemistry!! LoL!!

Thats Bestfriends Chemistry!! =)

'12 midnyte make over'

p.s: more pics coming up soon..heheeee..

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~~Friday, October 12, 2007~~

1:08 AM

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

The Bottom Line
If you just slowed down, you would be much happier. Turn off that stopwatch.
In Detail
Today you have a good time just shooting the breeze and relaxing with your friends, so try not to put anything too elaborate or too ambitious on your schedule. Having too much to do today will leave you feeling more frustrated than challenged. If you just slow down and take advantage of the fact that you are getting along so well with other people, you'll be much happier. So surround yourself by as many people as you can all day long. Why not get some new friendships going?

Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)

The Bottom Line
Get involved in important social issues as deeply as you can. It'll feed your ego.
In Detail
Follow any urge you have to socialize today, and it will take you to some very interesting places! Accept any invitation you are given, and volunteer to help out in any way you can. It's vital for you to get as involved in upcoming social activities as you possibly can -- it will feed your energy and ultimately give your self-confidence a huge boost. You'll feel needed. Every event -- from meetings to dinner parties -- will be much more fun with your input and ideas.

Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)

The Bottom Line
You find yourself moving into an introverted mood, but that could be a good thing.
In Detail
Your insight and energy will lay the groundwork for an especially productive day today. Whether it's finishing your taxes early, cleaning out your garage, or pulling together a last minute celebration, you are totally on the ball and kicking you-know-what today! Don't be surprised if powerful people take notice and offer you the chance to display your abilities on a much larger stage. Let your ambition take over and lead you to a success you have deserved for a long time.

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Thats for the 3 of us..

Well..well..

How true can it get..?

We will know

The end of the day..

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~~Thursday, October 11, 2007~~

2:00 AM

TIRED..

Waiting for the week to be over..

Class presentation tomorrow..

Dont wanna do it..

No energy to be in the limelight..

Hiaz..

but I have to do it..

Have committed myself..

Cant back out..

If I don't go..

Not only m I gonna lose my project marks,

M gonna get bashed up by three gals..

keke..

All their assignments are with me!!

So..

'ABEE,YOU CAN DO IT!!'

Well, if I dont wanna look like a panda

tomorrow..

I better hit the bed now..

TaTa..

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~~Monday, October 8, 2007~~

11:44 PM

Aaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!

Gimme an empty room and I can go on screaming for minutes!!!

All you need to do now

is to scream at me

and

there..the tears might just flow out..

gosh..

at least I might feel better after that..

Really!

Feel soo cramped up..

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!

Talk about being

in the middle of friends..

Parents..

feeling like a mannequin

in between two people..

Doing good for others

and

getting mud back into your face..

Being stacked up with responsibilities..

Projects..

Emotional turmoils..

and

worst of all

Not being sure if we are on the right track..

Just feel the pressure buliding up each day..

Scenarios might be different but the end result..

Scenario 1:

He wants to come..She wants to him to come as well..hell!!

Even I want him to come..

After all the 3 of us

have been together for soo many years..

but then

What am I to do

If the household management says no..

What if they are bent on their impression

based on what they saw and heard?

Its not as if I didnt try..

I tried my best to alter it..

I could not..and I would'nt blame them totally..

and

now I am in the middle..

Shes sayin talk to them..

I said I did..

and

there she goes asking me what to tell him..

man..yeah I know..

Both of them love me to the core..m struggling...

I wish he had never changed this much..

but then changes are the only constants in life..

Scenario 2:

She does'nt feel good..I don't feel good.

We feel that the week has to be over

for us to really smile

genuinely..

Things seem much more complicated..

Scenario 3:

My super hero..

Shattered..Torn..

Talks about death..before birth..

Talks about ruining everything

after october 13..

has started smoking..

She says its 'healthy' cigars..

They look bad to me..

I am scared..very scared...

Scenario 4:

Nightmares..real terrifying ones..

used to come only after midnight..

Now its invading my peaceful afternoons as well..

The similar components..

The dark room..

The women..

The fangs..

The feeling That this is' nt real

but has the ability to keep me shut inside..

giving me chills down my spine..

paranoid..getting real paranoid..

The things that keep me going

and

makes me smile

when I step out in my shoes:

my studies..

my future

and

no matter what happens,

my loved ones who still linger around..

I cant afford to lose my grip again...

no..I wont..I promised..I will hold on..

I will..

and

thats a promise

I will withhold

even

when they are not around physically...

I have realized ..

Just a smile can do wonders..

and the same smile can create wreck..

oh my..

Never in my life

have I missed someone's smile so much...

hiaz..

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