The FaLLen Angel's Here!

~~Friday, May 22, 2009~~

2:24 PM

All The Times

Had

Together..

We Go On

Friends Forever..

That was the heading of the farewell letter

I sent out to my CCPE Dearies

& Rgps Buddies!

The replies

I got back was just too

overwhelming..

Some of them

made me laugh..

made me Grin

and ultimate

ones

made me tear..

It was just running like a fil reel

in front of my eyes..

The first day

I went for the interview..

The day of the selection workshop..

The day

We went for courses

followed by lunches!

The deployment day

where

were stuck in a room!

haha..

The maths quizzes

and the imaginary games..

Then The fun outings..

The over nyte chalet..

Laila's wedding..

Liana's birthday..

Annae..

Gal friends..

Spa luxery..

Batam Anniversary Retreat..

Boot Camps..

D n D Planning

Plus

The Big day itself..

School wise..

Dance mania..

Voice box..

Carnival.

Esplanade trip..

Water Barrage..

Gosh..

So much to digest within a year..

Really..

Have learnt ALOT

and the fact that

Am leaving

In a weeks

time..

Makes me treasure

each moment

am around these lovely

people..

I am gonna miss the kids soo much..

Oh and I have to say this!

Darrrling

Edward

made my day!

Am still grinning!

I didnt expect

him to call me up at all!!

And when he went

'Abeeee, I wanna cry you know!'

I nearly had tears in my eyes

I tell you!

haha..

Gosh! Gosh!

Double Gosh!

I really hope

I will still have these people in my life

even

as I move on to pursue my passion.

It feels like running

in a green pasture

with a Kite in the hand..

Flying

The direction of the wind.

Hair flying..

Feeling free..

Not knowing where I am going..

The churning feeling..

Yet Happy..

Trembling

with mixed emotions..

Coz

I feel as if m being

teared of from the pages

Of a certain chapter

and being pasted into another...

Will I blend in..?

I have the confidence

That I will survive..

Coz of the blessings

of so many

wonderful

human beings..

Beautiful

Both

Inside Out..

May God bless you Lovelies!

Am loss for words now..

*Smiles*

*A very big group hug*

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

~~Monday, May 18, 2009~~

11:36 AM

When the doors closed..

The Windows opened..

Thank God

for the Family

You left me in..

There have been times..

When I questioned

My position

The household..

When I felt like

The lonely ranger..

When I thought

Something was

Fundamentally

wrong..

But then..

As Always..

There's a reason behind

All his play..

I thank HIM..

For the Family

I have today..

For withought

All these

Trials & Tribulations..

Fights and Pampering Sessions..

We wouldn't be

Where We Are Today..

I've just Realized..

That

What

Does n't

Matter..

But

Who

We Are

With

What

Really

Matters

Most..

THANK GOD FOR THOSE WHOM I'M WITH

Smile

The Whole World

Smilez

With U

!!!!

Memories....

The Only Treasure

That No One Can Steal..

('',)

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

11:21 AM

It just doesn't feel right..

Maybe its time

I knock my head

real hard

Wonder what

m gonna do

If certain things arise..

I hate that guy..

Not even fit to be a human being..

Once again

I belive in karma,

Thank God

For HIS SON.

Apart from raging in fury..

Its been an emotional turmoil week..

Several scenes

keep running in my head..

I try to block them

but to no avail..

The bull's eye is missing..

I can't figure out

whats gonna be so wrong

this time round..

Work?

Family?

Few precious people

who are rare to come by..?

I dont know..

and I feel so caged..

I don't want to go

through the circle again..

Trusting..Being happy..

Being dissapointed

Finally having to let go..

Its sickening

after a certain point..

hmm..

After a LONG time..

Have written a emo post..

I wonder..

Ponder..

Will I ever get out

of the dark circle..?

Even

My Shadow

Freaks Me

Out Now..

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

~~Wednesday, May 13, 2009~~

7:46 AM

Well..

Its an electric train ride..

Things have been swirling..

Real fast..

Mothers day celeb is over.

Thanks to Nas

and dads

that we managed to go through it..

There were major hiccups

here & there..

Even after the show..

but

I did enjoy the show..

It was a different experience

(apart from the fact that a few hairs turned

white for me and nas *Winx)

The voice over nyte was fabuluso!

haha..

hmm..

and emceeing with

both Naseemah

and

Uncle Ramzan

was fun..fun & GREAT fun!

well..

Fun being aside

the next day

I had to wake up to reality..

Dad..

All m asking GOD

now is

to gimme the strength

that I need

and To keep the family going strong

as well..

Its not easy..

Very difficult to digest at times..

but something is not right..

That much I can feel..

But then

It could be the apprehensive feeling

of seeing him like that..

Give him patience

and

increase his tolerance level GOD..

We need him there..

For many more years..

Many more happy moments

and many more.....

Its hanging in the air..

and

We are all hanging in there

As well..

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

~~Wednesday, May 6, 2009~~

4:40 PM

Its never easy
to think back about
things that
You'd rather forget..
But then..
For once..
I Smiled..
Coz
I genuinely knew..
I was true
to myself.
&
I wanted
to go through
them..
&
I did..
Hard..
but
M also Glad..
revived..
At least now I know..
It was more then THAT..
What I wanna know..
Just once in my entire life..
Was I ever right..
At least for a second..
Talking to people
with similar problems
Gives you
the different point of views..
Make you ponder
if you are wrong..
But
I know..
All's for Good..
& Everything happens for a reason..
We might bang into each other
one fine day..
On that fine day..
I will know..
If I am genuinely
over that
incidental part of my life..

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

~~Monday, May 4, 2009~~

2:06 PM

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

8:03 AM

When Thoughts Wander..

They Land Among Memories..

Oh! So Chweet!

I grin whenever I see this picture, despite my mood..

Such A wonderful day..

My birthday!!

Yet Another one of the gathering!

One of the days

Where we felt like models!

Haha!

It says it ALL!

One of the wallpapers
I had
In My School PC..

Another one of my favorite Collarge..
&
Its supposed to be
*Wander*
*Smiles*

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

8:00 AM

Hey..

Goodbye Nanba...

M not prepared

say

A Hi

Yet..

LOL..

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

~~Saturday, May 2, 2009~~

10:40 AM

Tigers love

be challenged

and will accept

any challenge

if it means protecting

a loved one or protecting their honor.

They don’t worry

about the outcome

because they know

they’ll always land on their feet.

Don’t let their calm appearance fool you though;

Tigers will pounce

when they feel it’s necessary.

Born to lead,

Tigers can be stubborn

if they realize

they’re not in charge.

They have a slight tendency

to be selfish but overall,

Tigers are extremely generous.

They’re very intelligent

and they’re always on alert.

Tigers are very charming

and are well-liked by others.

They are not motivated

by money or power.

Tigers have a continual need

be challenged

which may explain

why they jump

from job to job.

This isn’t necessarily a problem

because they’re smart

and able to quickly master

new subjects.

Some suitable careers for Tigers include:

advertising agent,

office manager,

travel agent, actor, writer,

artist, pilot, flight attendant, musician, comedian

and

chauffeur.

Creative in their passion,

Tigers will never bore their partners.

They’re expressive,

polite and trustworthy,

but watch out.

Tigers tend to dominate their relationships.

This tendency is instinctive

and when monitored closely,

such behavior can be kept

under control.

Partners need to be equally active

to keep up with the Tiger’s sense of adventure.

Tigers (Horoscope) are compatible

with a Dog sign and a Horse sign

and are incompatible

with a Goat and an Ox sign.

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10:03 AM

In Life,

There are moments when you miss someone so much..

That you will only fulfill your dreams by holding that person

Tight in your arms..

The most beautiful future

will always depend

The need

for forgetting the past.

You

will not

be able to

go from the past

in life

as long as

you will not

overcome

the errors of the past

and

all that hurt you..

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Sometimes..

When I think back it hurts..

Even though

I laugh when I talk about it..

But

If you ask me

If I am ever going back..

No..

IMPOSSIBLE..

So..I am proud of myself

That I moved on..

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

9:27 AM

You Taught me

A for APPLE

B for Baby

C for Cattu!

hehe..

You held my hands when I walked..

You broke my arms when

You tried to lift me up..

You fed me..

You watched me grow..

We had our wild cat fights..

Combs..

Paintbrushes..

Remote controls..

Spoons..

Anything

and

Eveything

We could lay our hands on..

We threw at each other..

We Cried coz of one another..

Called names at each other..

Swear never to see

each other's face for eternity..

The Day Came

When we had to join hands..

See Eye to Eye..

We gave each other..

The Smile..

No..

The curves formed by the lips..

That straightened alot of things..

Now..

Instead of laughing at one another..

We are Laughing Together..

Am glad for the sister GOD gave me..

Coz He never gives anything without reasons..

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