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Wednesday, September 30, 2009
11:18 AM

On this day of your life,
Abeedhah,
we believe
God wants you to know ..
that nothing is exciting
if you know
what
the outcome
is
going
to
be.
You keep wanting to know
how things will play out,
keep asking to see the future.
God doesn't give anyone
the power to know the future,
because
life becomes maddeningly
boring when you know
everything upfront.
So, instead of struggling,
enjoy the uncertainty -
to be alive
means
to
not
know
..

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009
12:28 PM


You'r worthy to be more then a chat and sms buddy..

hehe...

Somehow it feels good

to be of importance to someone..

=)

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Saturday, September 26, 2009
11:18 PM

IAMNOTCONTENTEDWITHLIFE@THEMOMENT..

When someone says that
whats your impression..
Am asking myself
that question..
This inner fire
thats burning in me
now seems to be
flaring out now..
I can feel the heat
and
its really driving me mad..
Its not enough to dream..
really..
Its only when you execute it
.you feel the power.
of dreaming.
and
of being alive.
Ifeelnumbednow..
seriously..
regretting.
and
Iwannadosomethingbeforesomethinghappens
Iambacktosqure1
butdoigiveadarn
IDONT.
I gave myself an opportunity
but
I have realised
its just not gonna work out.
But
the question
now is
can I afford to go back into the shell again..
Maybe I shld stop looking forward to it
due to circumstances,
It will happen
if its meant to be right..
Ya,
Thats it..
For now
I am to find a way..
Figure all that out
and Run to that destiny..
Where I feel
Its
HOME..

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009
11:02 PM

First 2 days of Hari Raya 2009..
The 'real' open house is yet to be here..
But here are the previews..
haha...



As usual, The 'Light House' during festival season! haha!


1 of my favorite cookies!! Yum yum!


Break fast @ Grandma home after prayers..

Photoshoot with daddy..
After 10 mins of persuasion, I agreed to snap a pic. haha!

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10:55 PM


The Wooden Bowl

I guarantee you will remember

the tale of the Wooden Bowl

tomorrow,

a week

from now,

a month from now,

a year from now.

A frail old man

went to live with

his son, daughter-in-law,

and four-year-old grandson.
The old man's hands trembled,

his eyesight was blurred,

and his step faltered

The family

ate together

at the table.

But the elderly

grandfather's

shaky hands

and
failing sight

made eating difficult.

Peas rolled off his spoon

onto the floor.
When he grasped the glass,

milk spilled on the tablecloth.

The son and daughter-in-law

became irritated with the mess.
'We must do something about father,'

said the son.

I've had enough of his spilled milk,

noisy eating, and food on the floor.'

So the husband and wife

set a small table in the corner.
There, Grandfather ate alone

while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner.
Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two,

his food was served in a wooden bowl.

When the family glanced

in Grandfather'sdirection,

sometimes he had a tear

in his eye as

he sat alone.

Still, the only words

the couple had for him

were sharp admonitions

when he dropped

a fork or spilled food.

The four-year-old

watched it all in silence.

One evening before supper,

the father noticed his son playing

with wood scraps on the floor.
He asked the child sweetly,

'What are you making?'
Just as sweetly, the boy responded,

'Oh, I am making a little bowl for you

and Mama to eat your food in

when I grow up.'
The four-year-old smiled

and went back to work.

The words so struck the parents

so that they were speechless.

Then tears

started to stream down their cheeks.

Though no word was spoken,

both knew what must be done.

That evening the husband took Grandfather's hand

and gently led him back to the family table.
For the remainder of his days

he ate every meal with the family. And for some reason,
neither husband nor wife seemed to care

any longer when a fork was dropped,

milk spilled, or the tablecloth soiled.

On a positive note,

I've learned that,

no matter what happens,

how bad it seems today,

life does go on,

and it will be better tomorrow.

I've learned that

you can tell a lot about a person

by the way he/she handles four things:
a rainy day, the elderly, accident and lost luggage.

I've learned that

making a 'living' is not the same thing as making a 'life..'

I've learned that

life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you
But, if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others,

your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you

I've learned that

whenever I decide something

with an open heart,

I usually make the right decision.


I've learned that

even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.


I've learned that

every day, you should reach out and touch someone.


People love that human touch --

holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that
I still have a lot to learn.




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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
5:40 PM


Its one of those days
That I wish..
I was still sleeping
when m actually
in
the office..
Rain or shine..
Thunder seems to be a
prominent feature
in my episodes..
Life as a drama..
Quite interesting to think abt..
How would it feel to have
a video cam
going around you..
Y our life on screen..
Mine
I guess..
Tragic Comedy..
Tragic coz
Its always ending
with exclamation marks
comedy coz of me
and the sprinkles
here n there by my loved one..
Well,
What begins in the first place
should end well right..
and what did they say..
If you r here
means
God knew
your the right person for this?
I really hope so..
Dad's checking in hosp
today to implant the tube thingy..
In other words
hes gettign ready for his
chemo treatment..
In the long term
its gonna be a part of our life..
So we are psychologically
preparing ourselfs too..
All of us are smiling..
but..
Nah..
1 at a time..
I had some one telling me
"5yrs is a very good ready u know.."
BUT
do u understand the fact
that I have spent
23 years as his daughter
and to know that the clock is ticking..
Is like slowly pricking one drop of blood
from the veins each day
failing to replenish it..
and
The way needles
prick into the skins..
slowly but painfully..
We are all walking on thorns..
They also say
1 day we all need to go..
but To know exactly when..
PURE Torture..
I never tot I ll be here..
But I am..
No point sitting down to lament..
Am not lamenting..
Am sleep talking..
Once I wake up..
Its gonna a faded dream..
It always does..
Must I divert my attention at this time..
Do
I need other diversions..
I dont know..
Really.
Ifeellostonceagain

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Sunday, September 20, 2009
10:47 PM

Kannil neeraadalaam..
Kaalam koodalam..
Ithuvum Poiyalla..
Naan sollum kathai alla..

I wish I had nt..
======
I wish I had not jumped in with eyes open..
It hurts to think
even now..

But too late is nt it..
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Friday, September 18, 2009
11:12 PM

I got flowers today..
It wasn't my birthday..
or any special day..
We had our first argument last night..
and he said a lt of cruel things..
that really hurts me..
I know he is sorry..
and didn't mean the things he said..
because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today...
it wasn't our anniversary..
.or any other special day...
Last night, he threw me into a wall....
and started to choke me...
it seemed like a nightmare..
I couldn't believe it was real...
I know he must be sorry...
because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today...
and it wasn't Mother's Day....
or any other special day...
last night, he beat me again...
if I leave him, what will I do?...
How will I take care of my kids?..
what about money?
I am afraid of him and scared to leave...
but I know he must be sorry...
because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today...
Today was a very special day...
it was the day of MY FUNERAL.....
last night, he finally killed me....
If only I had gathered enough courage
and strength to leave him..

I would not have gotten flowers today.....


Poem extracted from net
but really affected me..
Really sad..
No words to describe
the images that go thru my mind..
freaky
but
I dont wanna think about it..
Coz am not sure
if the images are mine..


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Monday, September 14, 2009
3:15 PM

There I am on my Knees again..
Prayers
You call it..
Conversation
I say..
Thats what I think of it..
Things are not exactly that sweet now..
Alot of nightmares
followed by sleepless nights..
The newcomers
are not exactly helping..
One by one
have striked them out..
and now its down
am still having doubts..
Is this gonna be it
or is it just
one of another maze
that am supposed to stumble upon
and fall out..
escaping the clutches of the vine..
God..
I am petrified now..
There
I have said it out aloud..
What else Am I suppose to do..
This looks like a day
where
I cant go with the flow..
Show me some signs..
Won't you..?
This is the month of ramadhan
and
people have been telling me
Prayers this month wont go unanswered..
Insha allah..
I am just waiting
As usual..
and
U
know
it
well
....

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Thursday, September 10, 2009
12:00 AM

I keep deleting what I wanna write..
Coz its just not coming out right..
Something that cant be defined..
As been disturbing me..
I dont even know
How to say it..
Just the feeling
of nervousness
&
Trembling..
Low blood pressure..
Or is it sumthing
to do with the heart..
The heart that plays with the emotions.
Incidents that happen around us
that makes us wonder
what the world is coming too..
The freaky paranoid feeling
of wondering
how the future is gonna be like
in this ambience..
God..
Are u listening
or
hearing..?
U taught us theres
a difference btw both rite..
Everyday when
I speak with u..
Am only praying
for a few things..

I know.
To ask to much.
is like asking for it to snow in singapore..
But what I am asking is a beautiful rainbow..
and I am willing to even walk in the rain for that now..
U do know that too..
But then again
You have always taught me
Life without struggle
is like a plain canvas without painting..
So yeah..
Am prepared..
But...
U made me out of flesh and blood..
Not stone and rock..
What a pity..
I wish I was..
Even being made of cotton would be good enough
I guess..
But flesh and blood..
and
all the other emotions
that run thru the mind.
Is so unbearable at times..
Individual..
Like what a friend said the other day..
Only 'I' is real anything after that is visual illusions..
In this scenario..
I dont even know
if
The
"I"
Exists
For
Real
....
All my life..
Memories seem to be fading off..
and
With that
The
word
"I"
is slowly
being brushed
off by
The
Breeze
Too..


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Wednesday, September 9, 2009
11:51 PM

மனசே நல்லாலே ..
என்னமூ புரியலே..
பர பர பட்டாம் பூச்சியா..
இல்லே..
புளிய கரைக்குற உணர்வா..
கெடுவா?
கேடா?
இது ஆரம்பமா?
மறுபடியும் நான் என்னை புதைக்கும் கட்டமா?
புரியல..
தெரிஞ்ச சொல்லு..
இல்லேன்னா என்ன விட்டிடு..
போதும் நான் பட்ட பாடு..
ஏன் படுதுரே என்னை இந்த பாடு..
கெட்டது குடின்னு சொன்ன அது தப்புன்னாங்க..
அவங்களே பொறுத்த வரை
இன்று
விட்டது சனி..
ஐயோ..
௧000 தலை வாங்கிய சிந்தாமணி எங்கே..
கொடுக்க சொல் எனக்கு ஒரு தலையை..
என்ன என்னோட தலையே இப்ப வெடிச்சுடும்
போல இருக்கு.


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Tuesday, September 8, 2009
3:38 PM

PIECES OF ADVICE FOR WOMAN
For Man who can't handle
JOKES leave the site right now!!


> 1. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in nappies.
Even when its nappies, we got to chase after them after a certain age!!

> 2. What do you do if your boyfriend walks out? You shut the door.
& Jolly well lock it!

> 3. If they put a man on the moon - they should be able to put them all up there.
haha! At least let there be peace man!

> 4. Never let your man's mind wander - it's too little to be out alone.
If there is one of their own in the first place!

> 5. Go for the younger man. You might as well, they never mature anyway.
=) You mean Boys will always be "BOYS"?

> 6. Men are all the same - they just have different faces, so that you can tell them apart.
Like how chameleons are all the same but when put on different surface theyr of different color..

> 7. Definition of a bachelor: a man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable.
Smart choice! but then theres his mom, sister,aunty..yada yada.

> 8. Women don't make fools of men - most of them are the do-it-yourself types.
Do we need a comment for this?


> 9. Best way to get a man to do something is to suggest he is too old for it.
That happens in 99.9999% cases!!


> 10. Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye-opener.
If only we can escape from the trap..
> 11. If you want a committed man, look in a mental hospital.
but most prob never in a relationship.

> 12. The children of Israel wandered around the desert for 40 years. Even in Biblical times, men wouldn't ask for directions.
even when they are lost in a block, they'd rather go up and down ten times then call and ask for the unit number!


> 13. If he asks what sort of books you're interested in, tell him cheque books .
And I think the reply will be:
Same here!

> 14. Remember a sense of humour does not mean that you tell him jokes, it means that you laugh at his.
Luff at him if you cant luff with him.It helps! =p

15. Sadly, all men are created equal!

=p

P.s: The above excepts only apply to guys who feel the prick when they read it.
Other then that I lurve the guys who have been there if me n my life but then again noones perfecto rite!
So if you can take it have a good luff or just smirk and go about doing your work.
After all reading a few paragraphs of truth wont hurt your ego right..
Well even if it does..
Shake it off !
Life doesnt stop for anyone
so once in while luffter
is good for health!
Chill will ya!
;)

;)

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Tuesday, September 1, 2009
12:31 AM

The heart that beats wildly..
Stops beating one day..
When it started..
When it will stop..
No one knows..
&
The journey
in
Between..
Does
it
really
matter?

Apparently
it does..
&
When does the truth hit hard..
When we lose our loved ones..
One moment
they are there..
&
Suddenly
They are part of our memories..
Only memories that remains as treasures
to be cherished..
When you realise
you no longer
can hear them
laugh..
Sense their smile..
and feel
their emotions..
Then
only you'd feel bad..
For not appreciating
them enough..
The tears that choke our throats..
Will prick our guilt..
For making use of them..
Or for not acknowledging
their presence
when all
they needed at times
was just a pat on the back..
Or a comforting
squeeze of the palms..
Just when we stand
beside them..
Watching them breath
their last few breaths..
We will scream in silence..
Coz there goes..
Not the soul
that yearned for our love..care and concern..
But also the time
that could have made life a lot beautiful
by reciprocating the love..
How late is too late..?
We will never know
till
We drown in the guilt
and tears that wash off..
Not only the ignorance
but also the ability
to forgive oneself..

========================================

Interesting questions
that arised
today in a conversation
with a fire fighter..
Which is better?
Looking for someone..
or waiting for someone..?
Loving the one u love
or u love the one
who loves u..

Words are hanging around there
but due
to the
daze
I
am
in..
Its nt coming out
on the screen
now..
hehe..
Soon..
Soon..
It shall..
:)

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