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But Sometimes,
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Saturday, September 29, 2007
2:05 PM

I grew up,
getting used to sharing my room with you..
I grew up,
having 'bolster fights' with you..
I grew up,
hearing your snores as my lullaby..
I grew up,
giving up the fan for you..
I grew up,
getting used to the sight
of you walking into the home,
peeking into the room
and
asking mom
what I was doing..
I grew up,
having you pass any phone calls
that was meant for me
through mom,
even though I was around you..
I grew up,
with you by the side..
giving me medicines
and
taking care of me all night
even though you claimed you didnt care..
I grew up,
wearing your oversized t-shirts..
I grew up,
with you thinking I was still the spoilt brat
that I used to be..
I grew up,
with the occasional
'favorite' burgers you bought for me..
I grew up,
thinking there was always a guy at home,
whom I can go to
despite the differences we shared..
I grew up,
with the pride that I had
not one but two people
who went around saying
'blood is thicker then water..'
Now that I have grown up...
all that is left behind..
are memories..in the breeze..
of me and you growing up...
Coz when I open my eyes to reality..
You are no longer there..
no longer there
to neither scold me
nor make me laugh
with his lame jokes..
I miss the brother
who was there for me
and
who wanted me to be there for him..
even if it was to
check if his cap was straight
or
his eyes were red..
I really miss the brother
who sat down with the entire family for hours
and
made sure we all laughed
despite the darkness
that loomed around..
Emotional turmoils..
am having difficulty continuing my thoughts..
So for now..
Lemme just end the entry here with a last note..
'what u have today
might not be there tmr..
&
what u have tmr
might vanish the day after..'
Take Care....

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1:45 PM



Reflection of Life test -
Imagine yourself in a forest or a jungle.
Answer a few questions honestly.
Write down your answers
and
then at the end check to see what each question means.

Imagine yourself in a forest or a jungle now.....
1) What is the first animal you see?

2) What is the second animal you see?
3)Imagine now there is a hut in front of you....
Do you :
a) Bypass it
b) Knock before going in
c) Rush in.

Now imagine yourself in the hut....

4) There are 20 candles in it, how many will you light up?

5) What is the shape of the table that you think is in the hut?
Is it square or round?

6) How many chairs do you see around the table?

7) There is also a jug in this hut.
What do you think the material of this jug is?

8) State the amount of water in it?
a) no water
b) 1/2 full
c) 3/4 full
d) totally full.

Now imagine that you are out of the hut...

9) You have reach a beautiful waterfall.
How fast do you think is the speed of the waterfall?
(1-9) (1 is the slowest and 9 is the fastest)

10) How many swans are there
that you see near the waterfall?

11) Now you have reach the river bank
and
your destination is just opposite.
How do you go over?
a) jump into the river and swim across.
b) find another way to cross it.

12) What are the first words that you will say when you get over?

13) Give 3 words to describe the sky.
Finally....

14) give 3 words to describe the sea
Analysis:
What is the first animal you see?
1) This question symbolizes the "reflection of your life".
What is the second animal you see?
2) This question symbolizes the "character of your life partner".

3) Imagine now there is a hut in front of you....
a) bypass means "not ready for relationships"

b) knock before going in means "ready for relationships"

c) Rush in means "you are desperate"
There are 20 candles in it, how many will you light up?

4) This question means "your generosity....the more you light up, the more generous you are"
What is the shape of the table that you think is in the hut?

5) If you have a square table this means that you are "stubborn",
if you have a round table this means that you are "flexible"
How many chairs do you see around the table?

6) This actually shows your "hospitality". The more the better!
There is also a jug in this hut.
What do you think the material of this jug is?

7) Depends on what you say, this refers to the "material of your heart"
State the amount of water in it?

8) This refers to the
"amount of love that you will give to your partner"
You have reached a beautiful waterfall.
How fast do you think is the speed of the waterfall?

9) Speed actually refers to your "sex drive"
How many swans are there that you see near the waterfall?

10) The number of swans,
refer to the "number of best friends you have"

11) Now you have reach the river bank
and
your destination is just opposite.
How do you go over?
a) This means "that you act without thinking"

b) This means "that you think before you act"
What are the first words
that you will say when you get over?

12) This refers to the
"first words you will say on your wedding night"
Give 3 words to describe the sky.

13) This 3 words describe "your point of view to love"
give 3 words to describe the sea

14) This 3 words describe
"the sounds or kind of love-making you will have"
haha..
well well..
just shared one of the test
that I came across..
just for fun!!
=) Take Care =)

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1:32 PM

Once in a while..
the writer in me peeks out
&
there I'll find myself
writing on and on..
Here's some of the random
mini stories that were created
by my inner soul..hehe..

STory Of My Life
I ponder and I wonder..
why m I here..
I didnt wanna come out..
I loved the pitch darkness..
was warm and cosy...
the gentle murmurs of that voice..
was all i needed..
but then it was fated..
fated that i arrive 2months before the due date...
I came with complications..
they had to open her tommy to take me out..
They could'nt wait..
They just could'nt wait to push me
into the world of facades..

I adapted quickly...
I crawled..I gurgled..
I laughed and I cried..
8 months was all it took
for me to walk and talk..
My parents were delighted...
They glowed in happiness
when I progressed
each stepping stones per day..
They were there to catch me
when I fall
and
to pat on my back
when I triumphed...
It was all like a fairy tale
for the first few years..
I bloomed..
knowing only the sunshine in life..
never was I exposed
to thunder and lightening..
till that day...
that fatal day still seems embossed in my heart...
TO BE CONTINUED....

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1:18 PM



If theres a Glass FiLLed with Water till half way,

Would u say
its half filled or half empty?
if you see a white wall with a black spot,

Would you say its smeared with dirt
or
would you just ignore it...

if there was a rotten apple in your fridge,
Would you check all your other apples or
Would you just throw away that one apple
and
forget about the others...

We often take extra care in things
which are not necessary for the moment..
but
Do we really care
about people around us & their emotions..?
How many of us
have put ourselves
in the other person's shoes
before giving off comments..??
We tend to keep our minds shut
and
only see things as we want it..
Not as how they are
but
How we want them to be..
Its easy for me to just type things here
telling people
to think out of the box..
but the decision solely
lies in your hands...
So tell me ....
in your vision
Is the glass half filled
or
half empty??

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1:34 AM


Geez..

My life is becoming a comedy track!!

Yeah..may sound silly but thats the truth!!

Was in tekka today..Sis wanted to go for threading and needed me to follow her..

so being a responsible sibling* ehem* I jolly well was on my way to tekka,(of course with aynul,in case you'r wondering)

Was suppose to meet sis at 1 but per norm, timing dragged and she smsed me sayin she will only be there around 145.

as aynul was 'exceptionally' hyper today, or in her own words'feeling caged up', we decided to head to jothi store to get some stuff first.

everything was cool..we went in..then we came out..

there came the first obstacle..

my heels got stuck in between the gap of the store entrance..grr..

yesh I was standing there

tryin to pull out my heels and yet had to make sure

I did nt look like a clown!

you may ask what aynul nazminah was doing at that moment!!

she was already in the road side

watching out for cars

and

only realized I was'nt with her after I rescued myself..

well..at least that was'nt that bad..

what followed next was really horrible..gosh...

after jothi store mini shopping,

as we still had some precious time..

we were loitering around the bookstore and

then came out to head to the bus stop..

as we were strolling,

in the middle of the shoplane,

my heels totally gave away..

and there I was stranded..

totally stranded coz the plight of my heels were such

that I was nt even able to take one staep w/out having to forego them.

well..well..being shoeless is one thing,

but having someone there

laughing at your face and re enacting the scenario is another!!!!

aynul!!!!

haha..ok I admit!!

she was cute..erm..

although what she told me was totally wiped out of my memory!!

keke..

thank god my sis was already there

and thank aynul for stapling my heels which enabLed me to take abt thirty to fourty steps further

which led me to the entrance of tekka mall..

yeah aynul..literally a shoulder to lean on.. =)

but then again,

right in front of the entrance

my heels gave away once again!

I had to be 'abandoned'!!

not all alone..

keke.aynul was there 'safe guarding' me..

boy..got to admit that the looks I got..

sent shivers down my spine..

could have just kissed aynul

for sticking to me like glu..hehe..

u know the best part!!

there I was standing like a display mannequin

and my sis who went to purchase the sandals,

took her own sweet time,

bought foot wears for her..for her kid

and

came back after nearly fifteen minutes!!!!

haha..but I was nt angry or anything!

just impatient to get out of that area!

after all if she had nt been there..

I would have had came back home bare footed!!

not that I have nt been before..haha..

its just that the before scenarios were all for my friends..

yeah I had walked bare feet before coz I gave up my shoes for my friends..

but today the place and the situation i was in..

really made me thank god profusely

for not letting me in such a dilemma alone!!

haha..yeah..my sis and aynul looked liked angels to me!!

although they were laughing at me, they were still my saviours!! hehe..owe you sweeties...

ok...enuff for the day..got to go..take care..tata

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Monday, September 24, 2007
2:19 PM


Yesh!! Jinxed is the word!!
Big time jinxed!!!
how else would i describe
my handphone battery committing suicide down the toilet drain??
yesh..You read it right..
it went down the drainage hole!!
plunged into it more likely!!
gosh..
and when I Came out to tell mom,
there I had to go..
slippind down the floor..
gosh gosh..
bad bad day!!!
Guess have to go handphoneless for a few weeks..
well..hard to imagine..
but will endure..
nevertheless..
thank you so much darlings for volunteering
to get me a new hp batt..
realized that in this kinda situations..
u ll see your loved ones concerns.. really sparkling shiny..
well..was scared stiff that dad might scream into my face..
coz I Was already getting it from him last week..
for my hp bills..
Mom was supporting me today that it was nt my fault..
i didnt say anything..
just sat there..starin at my pc screen..
partially was worried that if i had opened my mouth..
I'll burst out..
the other reason..
simply being body was hurting like hell..
after the fall..grr...
well..he simply was trying to hide his laughter..
grr...
ok..m still in a daze..
very much..
How am I gonna travel w/out my music..
W/out looking at my dearies faces on the screen..?
sounds scary..lonely....
hiaz hiaz..
if i mourn abit more..
I'll go mad..
I'll come back after
I figure out what to do..hiaz..
Take care people..

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Sunday, September 23, 2007
11:46 PM




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Saturday, September 22, 2007
4:18 PM



Ever believe that 7 people who look alike exist?

Interesting and yet complicated topic to be researched on..

have seen three so far..

they look alike and yet differ in some aspects..

was just wondering

if there are really look alikes wondering the earth..

hmm..well, it is possible rite..

not clones..

but

people who come from

entirely different walks of life..

and

yet share the similar facial look

and

even some charecterization..

hmm..

actually i was nt sure

what to blog when i came it..

haha..

was actually thinking

of

Mikki's blog..

interesting..

the way she has it laid out..

Hats off to her imaginary skills..

its a blog dedicated to her soft toys..

the fantasy world of

two sheeps

talking on behalf of their owner..

really amazing..

its been a month

since i started school

and

all thanks

to mainly PR

that i have had the chance to mingle

with quarter of the class..

why PR u may ask?

my pr lecturar shalu

has the most 'weirdest' way

of pairing us or grouping us..

the first week she started of saying

so sweetly

that we may choose our own group members

to do the advertisement, jingle, poster & PR interview.

that left me in the group with

Aynul,mikki, alizeh, fran,yin yuan and annie,

the following class assignment

was divided by the months

we were born..

and

can u believe it!!?

there are only two people

born in the month of february

in my class..

thats me and ann!!

so we had no choice

but to join the january group

which consisted of

tyrra,gael,january(yeah her name itself is january)

leon and ken

( he is actualy a march baby..haha but since he didnt come on the actually day of groupin he opted to join us)

we did campaigning for mdis student council!!

my group was the galaxy council..

hehe..

where stars shine!!

lol..

overall we pulled it off quite well..

we were appreaciated for our team spirit!!

man..we were on cloud 9!!

hehe..

just when we were thinking

that everythings done..

there she went saying,

' alrite people!!

this week is pair work

and

i am gonna pair you up

according to ur index numbers consequently!!

and

the first would be abEEeedhah

and

Joseph!!'

there I was thinking out loud,

whos joseph!!??

hehe..

it was fun actually..

hiaz..

what else is gonna come up..

I dunt know..

had an arguement with aynul yestrday.

didnt talk much to each other

but its ok today,

resolved it..

hehe...

this kinda mini things

are those foundation

to strong relationship ya!!

haha ok loggie is nudging me..

I better get to her..

shall be back soon..

take care all =)

tata :)

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4:14 PM



Sometimes u just need
the motivation to get started..
things have been on a roller coaster ride for most of us
(in my circle)
loggie has been flippin coins..
aynul has been nudging me.
and as for me..
i dunt know..
all three of us are really dazed..
maybe i am the most pathetic one...
haha
atleast the both of them know what they want to a certain extent..
for me..
well..
i do know..
its just that i dont know if its worth it..
the prob is i cant seem to let go..
maybe till the person involved has settled down..i guess i ll be in this state..
geez...

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Saturday, September 15, 2007
1:55 PM

An intro I had given myself a few months back on a website..

well what am I suppose to say
if life keeps changing
every moment?
nearly every three months once
I hear myself saying
gosh..
I look different..
hmm I guess am at the stage
of
exploring my world..
meeting new people..
obstacles
at this point
are rather complicted
but bein a human,
the most complicated creature of all,
in my humble opinion
I go thru this journey
of
steeps and slopes with pride..
just completed my dip in mass communication
in MDIS
and
will be commencing my advance diploma there very soon..
(have started my course now!!) hehe..
looking forward to face
yet another chapter in life..
I go with the flow
and
yet
have the urge
inside me at times to fight back..
sit down
and
just pause everything around me..
I can be extremely jovial..
extremely sociable
but
when th e bell strikes thats it..
mood out spoiled brat
who just wont open her mouth
coz if she does then everything goes hay wire..
being the third and last child...
was pampered in indulging ways
that makes me smile even now..
but I was discplined when they was a need too..
well over all credit goes to besties parents
and
my wellwishers for where I am now..
I believe in fate and karma..
what goes around comes around..
have seem ample examples
to know that
it jolly well implies
to real life scenarios..
I love being myself..
enjoying serenity..
getting wet in the rain
while immersing myself
to a cone of ice cream
with my darlings..
I love babies too..
innocent creatures..
not yet exposed
to the darker side of the world..
holding on to our fingers..
not knowing
we could be leading them
in to the world of deception..
sometimes I wonder why we smile at them..
to tease them by saying
that they too will soon join us
or
just to forget our worries
and
wish real hard we had stopped aging..
well..life is full of beauty..
It really depends on our perceptions
and
views and facets we have been through..
I guess I have been writing a mini compo
here even without realizing it..
just went through the website
and
had the urge to post it here..
so i did..
the feeling is still lingering..
something is gonna happen very soon..
m nt sure
if its for good or for bad..
its the month of ramadhan..
so lets just pray
everything is for good..
and
that whatever happens..
happens for a reason...
:-)

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