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Monday, April 28, 2008
4:46 PM


Expect the unexpected..

Training starts tomorrow..

Preparations are already going on for May 19..

Seems completed but then again as usual..
That one piece of jigsaw is still missing..

29 years is not a joke..
neither is 10..
So what about 4?

Am smiling..
So M I happy?
She's crying..
So is she sad?
Differs to a great extend,
doesn't it..

I don't miss the people involved..
But I do miss the moments that went by..


The sunset at sentosa..
The proposal and the ring..
The walk from cityhall to Sentosa..
Then the bunch of smilies..
The swings..
The Secret Pathways..
From chocolate shopping
to courts 'bedroom set' browsing!
School lectures
to MNC interviews..

Time just flew..and I am still here..
with the same smile..plastered on my face..

Its just that..
The once upon a time
'perfect heart'..
That had no crack or stain..
is now
battered, torn and shattered..
but
Thanks to all
the 'superglues'
its even stronger now..

There I go again..

Well people..

Once in a while..
The train of thoughts do seem to go hay wire..

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Sunday, April 20, 2008
1:01 AM

Ever went to bed early
and
sleep wasn't within
your reach yet?

Yesterday was no exception for me..
All alone
in my pitch dark room..
My thoughts began to wonder
and
images from the back
of
my mind
floated to the front..

It was 2001..
I was admitted in the hospital
and
had to stay there for a week..
Well...
Went in thinking my plight was the worst
when
GOD decided to open my eyes to the surrounding..
There was this 'girl' beside me
who looked very pale and aneroxic..
She was losing her hair
and
had to be on drips nearly 24/7.
During the initial days,
I didn't notice her much
as
I was going through
my own turmoil.
but
when she came forward
to console me
during my sleepless nights,
I couldn't help wondering
what was wrong with her..
and
I got my answer soon..
from her..
She was suffering from leukemia..
She said she knew
her days were numbered
and
that she couldn't afford to waste
even one moment
mourning
away..
coz to her,
life was indeed
very
precious
every moment
was
a blessing..
She's in my mind
till now
not only coz of
her
strength and determination
but
also because
of
the other soul
who was there
with her
through day and night.
Her boyfriend..
From what I saw
no one else visited her..
Only he was there throughout..
Looking at her and holding her hands
when she slept
There were times
where tears would just
slip out of his eyes
and
he would catch me looking at them..
He would just gimme
this heart wrenching smile..
It said a thousand words..
and
when he takes a nap,
she will be looking at him,
clutching on to his hands.
It was unbearable to think
that those two didn't
have much time
together
even
As a third party..
I felt the pain..
They knew
the pain of losing..
coz their time
on the
clock was ticking away
faster
then the others..
How many times
have we neglected
our loved ones
when they said something
out of concern..
how many times
have we not given a damn
about those who really love us..?
Even when they are right
in front of our nose,
we tend to look further
or
keep searching at other venues
till the day
where realization hits hard
and
then
they are completely out of reach..
Must we be pushed
into extremes to value
love..care..concern
and simple bonds
that can make a difference
in our everyday
life..?
It doesn't have
to be a
boyfriend or a girlfriend.
Everyone has a meaning
in
everybody's life..
but how often
do we really know
the importance of each of us?
When it comes to
work and play,
we hear people saying
24 hours is not enough..
but how long
is it gonna take for you
to call and say
a Hi!
and
if it doesn't kill
'I missed you'
or
"just dropped a line to hear ur voice for a sec'..
We often whine
when stress is at its peak
and
we find ourself submerged with work..
but can you imagine a life
without
work,play and all those people
around
you?
Just how much is
it going to cost you
to show that
you really care
in simple ways..
Geez..
I think am going off track..
It happens doesn't it..?
When you are in solitude..
Things just start
revolving from A to B
and
all the way till Z..
As days are breezing away..
M coming to realize
without certain things in my life..
I will definitely go crazy..
I will still be breathing
but
as Loggie said
I will be in a 'vegetable' state..
and
because of this new realizations..
Am beginning to pray hard
for a blissful future..
I badly want what I want..
but then again
It will only be gifted
if HE alone thinks I deserve it..
So am on my knees now..
praying hard..
very very hard..
For without it..
Not only mine,
but
a few others' future
is also gonna be bleak..
darn bleak..

P.S: People,
Do not come
to conclusions
about what am praying for..
=P
I can bet
its not what
you have
in
your mind
rite now
=)

With that
'unfinished' note,
I will take
my leave now
coz am
done
blabbering
for
the day..
=)Take Care(=

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Saturday, April 5, 2008
4:47 PM

How did I become such an important person in your life..
Why are you the soul of my life
When we don't even know whats the bond that binds us called..

That moment..that precious one moment that spurred me to dial your number..
Thank God for that..coz that moment turned out to be the twist in my life..

Through the maze we came through hurdles together.. hand in hand..side by side..

Never complaining even when we were pushed into pitch darkness..coz deep down..
Even without saying it out..we knew..we knew..
That we will be there for each other no matter what..
Rain or shine..
Heaven or hell..
It just cant be defined coz definition fades the value..


(= I LOVE YOU BABY =)

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

3:38 PM



Top 10
Cherished Memories
with
(= Loggie =)








  1. At the 'tender' age of 5..


The first time we asked each other for the time.

The time where we were in arts class drawing fruits..embedded in my mind..



2.That monkey bar incident..



when I went stomping in..sreaming that I dont wanna lose her to someone who treats her like a maid..till know..I dont know what made me do that especially when we were not even close to each other at that point..oh..and we were just 9 years old then..



3. 5 stone fight between the 2 'waris'..



haha..was stuck like a lamp post in between.. I was always the one in the middle..that five stones which were blue in colour with white designs.. and the way she walked away after throwing them far far awaY..As usual..ekeke..I was the one who was left behind alone to gather them and walk away to the class room alone..



4.The 'butterfly' sessions in the serene garden..



We suddenly were crazy over butterflies..that too butterflies that were 'joined' together or so we thought. We started to rush to the garden every day after school with containers and started catching 'special butterflies..haha..but then none of them survived to see the sun light and we used to be so sad..Till the day dad saw us with the butterflies and gave us a stern lecture and made us release them..It wasn't till teenage years that we realise that the butterflies we caught were actually 'mating' butterflies..sorry darlings..we didnt know at that age..



5.The last day at Pandan Primary..



The day that we clinged on to each other and cried for the whole day..even the heaven was crying for us..It was raining that is..That day we hated the sound of the school bell and the sight of the clock ticking away..and then at the last strike of the school bell,I baded farewell to my school..teachers..and my best friends..



6.And There..We Met again..



Yet again another rainy day..was drenched in my queenstown school uniform..as usual walking in the rain..loneliness was my best companion..depressed..and felt like the last day of earth was approaching..and there..there behind me I heard the all too familiar voice calling my name..I turned around and felt as if the angels were calling me for an heavenly embrace. I saw my bestie running towards me with her mother behind clutching on to the umbrella..That was all it took for me to break into a sprint right into my bestie's hand..and the next moment we were hugging each other in tears..



7.The 'accidental' picnic..



The day I really felt my brother's presence in my life..once gain coz of my bestie..the picnic that was arranged by her..The people who were suppose to come backed out last minute and I was forced to ask my bro to join us..He asked his friends and some of my distant cousins to join us and boy! We really had a blast that day! Special thanks to Ramlan,Jamin and yeah..My bro..haha..will never forget that done and bone game session and the time I spent with all my click once again..



8.'Near to the death..'



The 15 days that I spent going in and out..smelling of medicines and getting weary of the hospital smell..and yet noth able to control what was happening to me..The 15 days that seemed forever to my parents and bestie..I saw her there..with tears brimming in her eyes and yet giving me the smile that made me realize that I had to come out of whatever that was holding on to me..and I did.. =)



9.Transformations..



and then we stepped out of secondary school..me with depression and she with an entry form to NIE..Yet again..she was there all the way beside..scolding me..urging me and nudging me..There was never a moment where she gave up on me and said, I am out of this..She made sure I got hold of myself and kept going till I got myself landed in MDIS.. The day I got my result back..I felt her happiness and pride..nothing could beat that moment..



10. 21st bliss..



The important year in a person's life..definitely..both mine and hers..alot of things happened for both of us..Joy..Sorrow..we learned who were there genuinely for us and who are the ones who chose to ditch us..We forgave them and forgot them as well..



and the list goes on..



The mid night movie and the late night stays..



all the late night macdonald deliveries and the whole night chats.



laughing for no reason at all and calling just for a few seconds to say I love u and miss you..



December 14, the day we got soo pampered, even by strangers in the restraurant hehe....



The 'romantic' day out..The hari raya eve 'surprise'..



The first time I brought my first 'official' boyfriend to meet my besties @ Jurong east.. The manner in which she kept a close eye on us and the way she strictly told me to say NO to a few things..was just darn cute!!keke..



haha..well well..



I can go on saying..



oh yeah..



All of the 'evidences' are safely tucked in the treasure box we bought at IKEA..haha..yeah..



Although we had a bed full of thorns..



This life that we were gifted with



has too many pleasureable cherished moments



to be exchanged for another..



A best friend is a gift in life



and



m glad I got that gift as early as 5..



and one that has stayed by me..with me..and in my heart..



I dont have to define how much I love her..



but I do feel the responsibility of keeping you happy..



coz that smile is what brighten up my days too..



Soon You'll be joining the boat too..haha..



I meant you'll be turning 22 babe..



Just wanna thank GOD



and thank you for giving me



the joy of pure frendship bliss



and being there for me..



simply being there for me..



and



for simply being my bestfriend



in every possible way you can..



Muax..



Love u di..



This post is specially for u..



P.S: Did I mention the 'singing' sessions? keke!



=) Take Care (=





=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

Wednesday, April 2, 2008
10:46 PM







Something
that

I could do
at

the moment

for

my precious darlings..


Once

in a while surprises

are

good for health


It seems..haha..


Love you babes..


I know

this is nothing compared

to

your presence


in

my life..


but
Its just a simple way

to say

I LOVE YOU..

In a way

I know will

make you both

grin
for the whole day..

hehe..

=) Take Care (=

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