A Month of home babysitting

is succesfully over..

After two months

it will be time to think 

abt the next step in the career

potion of life..

For now that seems like 

the biggest portion 

in her life

as all the others 

are either missing

rocky 

or 

just gone..

Her weird compilation

of dreams

have been occurring

like some drama serial..

Freaking her much..

Really hope its just

some passing cloud..

Wild imagination..

Nothing else.

Cross fingers..

Well

one thing is for sure

the dream where 

some 'significant'

event will happen in 

october

coz She doesnt want in 

September

is highly possible 

to be what it is..

Just a DREAM..

With just two to three months,

in btw 

She doesnt think 

anything like that could be possible..

So PHEW!

To have a status change just like

snapping your fingers 

is OH BOY CRAZY!

the question of if she will dare to do it or not

and at this point her closed one 

might be smirking at her

is a highly NO..

After all that trials and tribulations..

All the sufferings seen from others..

Why make the same mistake..

read somewhere 

that you cant make 

ALL

the mistake in the whole universe by 

yourself

and thats why 

we are created as a bunch.

To learn from other people's

MISTAKE..

May sound cruel..

BUT HELLO..

She's not asking you to do it

so that she can learn.

If you closed eyes and

jump into a well 

filled with puddle

she can only stand and watch

and pray to HIM..

Especially when

she doesnt know swimming.

you know..

Its something like that..

Ookie..

As crazy as it seems..

She thinks 

shes over the stage

of wanting things

to happen 

coz she wants a escape route..

If its gonna happen..

It will

and it should happen for the right reason...

Not expecting 

a prince charming

in a white horse

or 

a white Jaguar

as gals 

nowadays say..

Shes just praying for 

an understanding soul

who is not gonna condemn her

for the decisions taken..

and for where 

how and who she is now..

Too much to ask?

Not sure..

When He Strides in..

She will know the answer.

=D