The FaLLen Angel's Here!

~~Monday, April 30, 2012~~

11:21 AM

As simple as it may sound,

All the more its complicated..

She is left

to wonder most of the times..

If its just HER..

or the people around her..

Simple gestures of appreciation..

A sweet smile..

A melodious good morning..

A warm cosy

hug to say

we are there for each other..

I value you

as much as You value me..

NOTHING..

Is it so difficult to express love..

Shes wandering around..

Really doubtin

the high pssibilty

that only she misses you

THT much..

and you dont..

Whil you happily shop around..

attend functions

and spend time with the other

kid..

theres one here..

forever praying

that you would understand her

as much as she did..

Whenever she got

pushed away..

she got up on her own

and tried again..

everytime

there was a AGAIN..

there was a tear in her heart as well..

Whats the point of lamenting now

when she has totaly gave up..

ALL THOSE

Years of clinging on..

has boiled down to NOTHING..

IT has created a deep scar..

One that can make her hide in the darkness..

That cld make her behave like she doesnt care..

But

She cares more thn she reveals..

She yearns more then she shows..

The wait is getting draggy.

The hope is vanishing...

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10:39 AM

இமைக்கும் தருணத்தில் மறைந்தான்அவன் என்ன..? புயலா இடியா?

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~~Wednesday, April 18, 2012~~

11:32 AM

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~~Tuesday, April 10, 2012~~

10:44 AM

(: DOUBLE RAINBOW SPRINKLES!! :)

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~~Monday, April 9, 2012~~

5:18 PM

She feels a bolt of anger within her.

Don't really know how to describe the exact feeling, but it's a very uncomfortable feeling which resides once it comes.

Its like eating her insides..

Some sort of uown power that feeds on he emotional feelins..

As it gets stronger,

she feels furious with all the people who have hurt her before, in one way or another.

It's when all the people she thinks she has put behind and

walked into her future..

raise as apparitions in front of her and become sinners all over again.

Its when the few incidents keep replaying in her mind..

and all she wants to do is

break that glass mirror in her

mind as she refuse to look at the

reflections that

has caused her scars..

The mockery..

The laughter..

The tears..

The pain..

It's when she feels unhappy with herself,

not contented with anything in life at all.

Where everything and anything seems to irritate the hell out of her..

When she just sits there staring at space..

not wanting to move a muscle.

She seriously freaking hates this feeling

and it's been irkin her a lot since a few days!!

She needs to find peace, yes, inner peace within.

She feel like shes lost.TOTALLY...

She has to speak with HIM..

To renew her

and just take all these negatives vibes away from her.

To give her the strenght to love herself more and

to be fair to those who are showering

their love on her now..

ALLAH..

Please be there

to bless her k..

Pls dont leave her in distress.

This time..

She really doesnt have the strenght..

neither the pieces

to glue back..

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5:10 PM

JOB HOPPING THEY CAL IT..

FINDING THE RIGHT NEST

IS WHAT SHE CALLS IT..

STILL IN DEPRESSIVE MOOD..

& THE SKY IS CRYING OUT FOR HER TOO..

BEEN CLOUDY SINCE MORNING..

YA ALLAH

GIVE HER THE STRENGHT..

இதுவும் கடந்து பூக்கும்..

நீ சொன்ன சொல்

என் காதுகளில்

ஒலித்தாலும்

ஒரு கூக்குரல்

தூரத்திலிருந்து

கூப்பாடு போடுகொண்டிருகிறது..

சிறை வாசலிலிருந்து விடைபெற்றாலும்

மனகே கூண்டு அவளை

ஆயுள் சிறையில் வைத்து

விட்டது போலும்..

என்று பழையதை

நினைத்தும்

அவள் முகத்தில்

புன்னகை நிலைகிறதோ
அன்றே அவளுக்கு

முழு விடுதலை..

கிடைக்குமா?

நீடிக்குமா?

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8:14 AM

She never knew she could get so depressed by a movie..

And neither did she realise that even a tinge of her past

could shake her to the core..

Why do you think she loves reading books for hours

and writing stories..

So that she could be someone else.

Some one else whose world almost always

end in a happily ever after..

The palace..

The shoulder to lean on..

Everything thats so beautiful..

Where the loved ones moved heaven to earth

for each other..

Where they are not left alone..

Darn..

She cant believe she actually broke down at the streets..

In the spur of the moment,

confessions came spilling out

together with the tears..

Not one..not two..

So many has entered her life..

created impacts and left just as they came..

emotionally her heart got pinched into pieces..

Since she was young..

Whoever she thought she loved..

and whoever she thought

would be always there..

taught her that the word

FOREVER

doesnt exist in reality..

They left..leaving behind huge scars..

mentally and emotionally..

Shall She name them..

Beginning from K1 till a few years back..

CHANGES WERE THE ONLY CONSTANT..

no one remained

Except her BESTIE..

God..Shes an ANGEL..

HER GOD SENT ANGEL..

If not for her..

either SHE would have been admitted or a closed up file case..

She stuck through..All the way..

Beared the words..mood swings..tears..everything and anything..

Just to see her through that ordeal and get her to shine..

Like how a mom would bear the childs kicks and tantrums..

Maybe her tears yesterday was for her guardian angel..

For unknowingly..she made her suffer..maybe even more then her..

The extreme intake of pills..cuts..black outs.. The feeling of being numb..

walking seeing things sway aroung you.. Well..

To think abt it now..

The feeling of not being able to hug your bestie wen you know you so want to..and all you had was a phone and being a call away and yet being helpless seems terrible..

really..love her to bits..

Would she have done it at her situation..Really dunno..

Wheather it was accumulation of stress or partial mental disorder..

or bipolar whatever...

She is glad she came out of it..

Shes glad ALLAH set angels to fight the devil for her..

and most of all

THANK ALLAH for giving her the opportunity to

spread LOVE even tho she was stepped on..

beaten blue black and

all that that should have technicaly made her numb...

Thank HIM.. for showing her how to live it right..

Every problem has a solution..and it might not be even a problem in the first place..

Ending your life or doing things to oneself doesnt stop the misery..

If you survive the cuts and plans, those who dont care will either pity you or make a mockery out..

Those who really care, will cry with you, hug you and feel the pain that tears their hearts into pieces and push you to your knees together with them and Pray to HIM that ALL goes Well..

LOVE YOU ALL SWEET HEARTS..

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As simple as it may sound,

All the more its complicated..

She is left

to wonder most of the times..

If its just HER..

or the people around her..

Simple gestures of appreciation..

A sweet smile..

A melodious good morning..

A warm cosy

hug to say

we are there for each other..

I value you

as much as You value me..

NOTHING..

Is it so difficult to express love..

Shes wandering around..

Really doubtin

the high pssibilty

that only she misses you

THT much..

and you dont..

Whil you happily shop around..

attend functions

and spend time with the other

kid..

theres one here..

forever praying

that you would understand her

as much as she did..

Whenever she got

pushed away..

she got up on her own

and tried again..

everytime

there was a AGAIN..

there was a tear in her heart as well..

Whats the point of lamenting now

when she has totaly gave up..

ALL THOSE

Years of clinging on..

has boiled down to NOTHING..

IT has created a deep scar..

One that can make her hide in the darkness..

That cld make her behave like she doesnt care..

But

She cares more thn she reveals..

She yearns more then she shows..

The wait is getting draggy.

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