The FaLLen Angel's Here!

~~Tuesday, June 14, 2011~~

9:24 AM

After nearly 6 months

I spoke to her again..

For Good or Bad..

Only GOD knows..

And

I think

SHE misses her

MORE then I DO..

Wait Do I miss her at all..?

I am not sure..

THats how stone hearted I feel..

The incident has left a very

bad burning scar in me..

Not sure

If I can trust anyone to that extend anymore..

and I certainly cant be like how I used to be before

IF I EVER GO BACK

WHICH I DON'T WANT TOO..

LEAVE ME ALONE..

Is all am asking..

TOO MUCH RIGHT..

Heck it..

Seriously..

I have learnt to be independant..

and this is how I wanna be now..

I do know if the way

I talk is not at all flowery nice and sweet to listen.

But Babe, This is what you have showed me..

You two made me grow up in

the path filled with rocks steeps and stones..

and I was certainly treated like

a prized possesion..

Now that am gone,

All you ever do is complaint,

Whine and Throw the blame on others!

GROW UP.

NOT THAT I CARE..

HMM..Although I may sound furious..

Am actually quite cool at the moment..

More to sleepy actually..

Really..

Nowadays no matter how much I sleep,

Am still sleepy and tired.

and My muscles seem to have a will on their own..

Like losing control of my hp,

plastic bags and GOD KNOWS WHAT..

When am extremely sleepy..

Like a few people said..

Maybe its just all the stuff

that has been

cramming itself

into my head..

I am puzzled on

how to let go..

Anyways..

Its been an adorable two plus months

watching Ashiq grow..

Sweetie pie is super duper active and growing up fast

into a handsome hunk!

haha, Worries fly away when I see him

and cuddle him..

Theres some sort of a comfort warmth in the way a child holds on

to your fingers and cuddles against you when they wanna sleep..

It nice..what else can I say but THANK GOD.. =)

And then finally a trip is mterialising btw the besties..

This weekend..

After so many changes,

Finally We are heading for a vacation..

I have been there a couple of times

but since its the first time

am heading out with my bestie,

I shall not complain..

So its gonna be me, her, Mubee darling and Valli ma..

lol I for see a lot of overseas trips =)

Insha Allah,

Next month on the 23, I am heading to penang with my uncles and aunties and cousins.

Its gonna be fun fun and FUN!!

Then ANother big INSHA ALLAH,

We are planning to go on another trip to India

this coming December. =)

Hopefully All Izz Well! =)

I am just amazed at myself

How

Long I Can keep On Writing!

Haha..

I better go now,

I have got a group of kids

coming to the gym at abt

10am.

So Take care All!

Tata!!

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~~Wednesday, June 8, 2011~~

9:43 AM

A Few Extracts From The Book

That am reading now...

"Daddy's Little Earner"

Heartbreaking

True Story

A brave Little Girl's

Escape From Violence.

Maria Landon

Sunday Times BestSeller!

" But these punishments & humiliations would have been bearable if that was all he had done to us. I could have found excuses & forgiven him for all of them if it wasn't for what he started to do to me next."

"All mothers love their first sons & all daddies love their little girls,'' he would say, as if merely saying it was enough to prove it.

" I used to have a recurring nightmare during the years we lived with dad. I would feel like I was caught in the centre of a spiral of colourful circles.As the spiral gathered speed I would feel trapped, falling faster and depper into nothingness.Certain that if I dont get out I was going to die.''

"One of the things that Dad likes us to do was read the evening paper to him each day when he got back from the pub because he couldn't do it himself...Believe it or not, that was how the next level of abuse started, with me reading to my father....''

"Do you want a lollipop? Yes please Daddy,I replied eagerly. As he took my hand and marched me upstairs I felt confused. Surely There wasn't any lollipops up there and I hadn't heard the ice cream van in the street outside. My heart sank as he gave me a magazine and lay down on the bed.."

" The moment you were born you were his, mom once told me.."

''Right from the start..He used to joke That he would make the best little prostitute in the block.."

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Its heartwrenching to read each line in the book..

Devasting to know what one can do to his own kin..

Humans..

can even be more terrifying then animals..

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