Its somewhere around end april..

And the buzz about many virgin voters

is ringing everywhere..

For me I would nt have really cared if it was years back..

But After splashing into the journalism world

for some time

I was forced to learn ministers names,

what they do

and where they stand in!

All the walk abouts with the ministers

that I had,

The one to one interviews..

Hearing heart landers talk about them

and how they react in public

has definitely given me

a hint of politics.

But I still would say

Politics is not my cup of tea..

of coffee rather,

haha..

I have always preferred

to speak with random people,

students or mingle with a family

that was getting some neighbourhood award..

lol.

It always gave me the warm feeling to be sitting amidst them

and feel bonded for the time that I had to interview that

and get the gist to write in the two or three column that would be allocated to me..

I always felt that the space was not for me to outshine my name

but a space given to them to say it out loud to the public..

I always went out telling myself

not two days are the same and everyone was

a lesson walking around for me to

read, reflect and share it with others.

and thats how I have always approached them,

Being born in a staunch muslim family,

Initially when I was told to go to temples, churches etc,

my parents gave me a raised eyebrow.

But being a journalist

I embraced it and

looked forward to

a vibrant culture rich day filled with knowledge.

and thats what I always got.

people accepted me for the smile that I gave them

and I accepted them

for letting me know the simple essence of life..

Now as I have stepped out for a breather for a while,

each interview sessions for each articles I have written

seem to come across as a flash before my eyes.

It taught me that that I am unique..Just like everyone else..

Those who had the glitter of hope in their eyes and

smile on their faces despite the difficulty in life.

Those crossed milestones despite physical challenges.

Those who got second chances.

Those who didnt regret

the mistakes

but took it as a challenge to survive and be a better individual..

Even those negative vibe ones..

How a family background if not good

could spoil an entire life..

and so on..

Suddenly am feeling it all running in fron t of my eyes..

I am thankful to GOD

for all the days spent knowing people

who shared their innermost secrets with me..

I really hope that I have delivered to the society

what they could sieve out as diamonds

and throw away the rocks..

It was indeed a heavy responsibility

and It took me all this hustle bustle political

topics around me to give this emo journal!

hahaha..

well well tho I had left the field for 1000 other reasons,

I have got the spark in me

that I will definitely continue to

contribute in the way that I have always wanted

soon.

INSHA ALLAH =)

Especially for you,

Whoever you are,

Whereever you are..

If you are thinking

its sealed and waiting for you,

Remember TAGS tend to wear off.

;)

All that talk about

'if it was just like that(as it is now)

it would be just so perfect!'

But then..

Not everything

that seems suitable

fits into our life eh..?

Dunno if I should laugh or cry..

Hmm maybe thats how its supposed to be.

U know, the line that people often use:

Maybe GOD wants you to

a few wrong people before

you finally meet your right one

seems abit altered in my case!

haha maybe

GOD wants me to meet

a few right ones so that

When The bell music strikes at the back of my head,

he may not only be the right guy but the 'perfect' guy for me!

haha but will I be his 'perfecto' lady?

Thats a question that only

Mr.Ajnabi can answer..

Am seeing a few strange

characters in my life

who seem to be

full of praises..

Ironic..

Years back..

All I got was raised eyebrows..

and what one guy in secondary school

said still keeps ringing in my head..

Guys, if you think a gal is not up

to your so called beautified expressions,

just keep the darn remarks to yourself!

U may never know

what she might blossom into years later

and you wouldnt wanna be

hanging your head down then right?

So be good!

haha..

well so many incidents

pushed me to my brim..

And worst of all,

everything came to me and

then was just snatched away..

Just when I was thinking

how unfair life can be..

beautiful things occurred..

Was just like a butterfly in a garden..

But that too tarnished when

someone grasped me in their palms

and squashed my wings..

All was gone..

Bleak and empty..

How many nights

has my pillow cried..

How many days

have my shadows screamed..

But then fate has its way of playing..

Things do twist almost too often..

and now am at the brighter side..

even tho its still shadowy at times..

I mean I feel like a checkered board actually..

As much as happy I am..

The war thats been ongoing

is tearing my heart into pieces.

But what do I do

except

sit with a smile

and wait

as I always have..

Sometimes it just gets unbearable..

But no choice right?

Its not like a movie

where I can pause everyone around me..

Run to the clock,

turn the hands!

Run to the calender,

tear out the pages

and wella,

I am in a future

where

everythings just the way I want..

PICTURE PUUURFECTO!!

well..

I dont even have to pinch myself

coz I have been through SO many things to know

that hello! I got to come back to reality soon!

Life is just a funny movie..

U cry, u laugh..U feel at the end you just walk off leaving the screen empty..

hmm..I started it off like a letter right..

But heck I know it does nt sound like one coz its not..

As usual I diverted and I am blabbering..

Too draggy perhaps.. So I better leave now..

Oh by the way GOD,

You can turn the hands of the clock pretty fast if u want too right?

=)

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This guy paints himself, no kidding, no trick photography he just paints himself... Last pic is simply brilliant... ..Couldn' t spot him

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Wednesday, April 27, 2011

10:44 AM

After years,

I have started running..

Okie, not really into full sprinting

haha

but jogging plus walking plus stair case climbing..

And

I FEEL GOOD!

It felt great to run in the rain yesterday!

If not for my handphone

I would have been in there longer@

hmm..

and theres something about

fighting against the wind

and moving forward!

Beats me on why I didnt feel it before!!

=0)

AND SUDDENLY I MISS WRITING!!!!

I miss being a joournalist..

:( but alls for good.. :) I hope.. (:

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Tuesday, April 26, 2011

5:23 PM

Yet another new place!

Yet another bunch of new faces..

Taking in as it goes!

as my bestie says:

My life is filled with NEW chapters!

haha..

hmm..

okie..

Nothing much to say for the first day actually..

We will see..

:)

Missing my bestie very badly!

Might meet her later!

For now adious!

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Thursday, April 21, 2011

4:18 PM

Had the sudden urge to sketch again..

Haha I only draw when I have the urge

coz thats when I get them near to right..

If not most of them will look like

Caricatures..

hahah..

Well, nothing professional..

but I think m improving

hha just to keep my mind diverted..

Its better to be a drawing on paper

rather living human being..

hiaz..

Oh

and

the

ideas

were

plucked

from

several

websites

and

modified

to

my style.

haha..
and

was

edited

from

my

iphone

too..

=)

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4:14 PM

நான் வாழும் வீட்டுக்குள்

வேராரும் வந்தால் தகுமா..

நான் நானா?

கேட்டேன் என்னை நானே..

கடவுளே கடவுளே

கனவில் கூட

பார்க்கமுடியவில்லை

நிஜத்தை..

மீண்டும்

நான்

நானாக

வரத்தை

கொடு..

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Monday, April 18, 2011

4:08 PM

இதுவும் கடந்து போகும்..

ஆண்டுகள் கடந்து சென்றாலும்

விட்டு விலகாத நினைவுகளோடு

காலம் கடந்து செல்லும்..

சென்ற பாதையில் முற்களைக் கடந்தோம்..

பூக்களின் வாசத்தை சுவாசித்தோம்..

கைப்பிடித்து நடக்கையில்

பேசிய பேச்சுகளை ரசித்தோம்..

அருகருகே அமைதியில் அமர்கையில்

மௌனத்தை மதித்தோம்..

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I had a sudden word attack and all these words spilld out..

But the sudden noise disrupted my thoughts

and I cant go on any further..

haha,

Not even sure who am refering to

in the poem..

hmm well feel free to continue

if you think you can..

hehe..

=)

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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

3:25 PM

As her eyelids are shutting down,

She's struggling to avoid plunging into th darkness..

....She's got this urge nowadays....

To Run,

let the

brush past her..

To feel the wildness..

To let it all go..

She has the urge to read alot..

To dwell deep into the characters and be part of their world..

She has got the urge

to get wet in the rain

like the good old days..

She yearns to be

a child again..

To be freed..Free... Seems like she has all the freedom that she has. But something seems lacking in her life.. A part of her seems to be void.. In seach of something..

While piling up on her cravings..urges..

It gets her nerve at times..

That tho she seems smiling.

Her mind is crying out..wailing out...

She has the urge to just travel..

Go far far away..

From the darkness

thats trying

to swallow her..

Most of all.. She just has the urge, To Be Herself..

All over again..

Like Never Before..

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Monday, April 11, 2011

1:19 PM

My huney bun sugar

Angel turns25 today!!

Welcome board baby!

Haha..

My god sent gift..

Who was there

to share my burdens

double my joy..

Someone whom I could sit with in silence for hours

and feel as if I had the most awsome communication ever

would definitely be my bestie loggie!!

Love ya baby!!

Wishing only the best for you!!

May your path ahead be filled with

golden moments, cherishable memories

and of course ME!!

hehe and I pray that you find you soul mate sooooon!!

Vallimma will indeed agree with me!

Vayasaaguthullae!

Faster settle down can!

haha, I can feel your stare!

lol,

hmm its your birthday and I am so sorry that I cant meet u today babe!

but soon we will have a bash k!

you and me and our 'romantic' dinner!haha..

HOPE YOU HAVE ABLAST TODAY and A FANTASTIC DAY!!

LOVE YA MANY MANY!! MUAAAX!!

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY THOZHI!!

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12:30 PM

As am sitting here all along..

listening to the fan's gentle breeze..

and the music thats jarring from my Iphone ear phone..

My thoughts are really wandering around.

Have been passing on good opportunities

because of the naggy feeling somewhere in the corner of my heart..

All this while,

durng that fast pace life..

I seem to have lost my originality somewhere.

I feel dazed..

Its not like I have ZERO idea..

I do have a few wishes.

But most have them seem to have a road block..

and am afraid my time is gonna run out by unblocking them..

A car license..

A degree..

A production house or a events company..

A short drama wit my darlings..

A variety show..

Something that shows the worldwhat we have been through..

But all that seems to be hazy now..

All seems to be hesitant to materialize..

Am not sure if m fair to say this..

but if my status changes..

MAYBE JUST MAYBE..

A few of the above may change.

I dont know..

Its been nearly 4 months..

And am only missing my room

and my softies..

As for the others..

Yet again..

theres a question mark..

Alot has happened to stir the phobia in me again..

Got to wait for theright time andsuitable scenario to dig it deep in grave again..

At the moment..

I canonly go with the flow..

Whaever thats gonna happen..

Am gonna leave it at the hands of Allah..

Pls show me the right path..

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