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~~Wednesday, December 16, 2009~~

5:53 PM

The Gift of Depression

Confined
within
4 walls,
Screaming
within
my head,
Fighting
a war within
My heart,
I did
not even
have
the courage
to face the mirror.
Unknowingly,
I had welcomed
HIM
with open arms
into my life.
Dark hooded
and
with
an
evilish grin
He
came within
and
conquered
my world.
For
4 years,
He
went
around
with
me
adding
on
to
My
inferiority
complex
My pillow
drenched
with tears
for almost
all nights
and
even
days
at times
and
HIS
ultimate
aim
seems
to
make
loneliness
swallow
me.
And
For
4
yrs
He
did
suceed.
But
He didnt know.
He didnt know
that
opposing forces
were acting against him.
Those
who
refused
to
give up
on me.
Even
when
I told them
to go
get a life,
Even
When
I
refused
to
grab
hold
of
their
hands
when
they
came
running
to
lift
me
up.
Those
forces
called
'Besties'
endured
everything
and
came along
like
a shadow.
Waiting
for a moment
to
snatch
the blind fold
away
from me.
To embed
in me
that
there's a reason
why everything happens.
Even rock shatters rite..
I did too
one day.
Realization
hit hard
and
I came
to
a conclusion
that
theres a bad
in
good
and
theres
a blessing
behind
every
obstacle.
Therefore
I smiled back
at
Mr.Depression
and
thanked
him.
Coz
with
his presence,
God
showed
me that
My
loved
ones
were
truly
miracles
in disguise.
Thru Him,
I realized that
I had just
forgotten
that
my
smile
was
still
there
lingering
under
my nose.
Deep traumas
leave
irrevocable
scars
in us..
They
do
create
negative
effects
and
make
it seem
like
We are
never
gonna
get out of it.
After all
Mr.Depression
gets stronger
feeding
on
our
soul
and
mind.
But
God
always
deploys
an
angel
on earth
to hit
some
sense
into
our heart
and
get us
back on track.
Thank GOD
and
Mr.Depression,
I held
on to mine
after
waking up
from
four
years
of
sleep
walking.
Walking
the path of life
with
head held high,
I do
stumble
here
and
there
now.
But
past experiences
have thought me
how to
get back
on my feet
and
where
to
tap
for
balance.
Now
Mr.Depression
has
long
gone
with
the wind.
Now and Then
Mr Anger
and
Ms Frustration
do pop in
sometimes,
but
they
too
are
bidded
farewell
by
my gems,
'cherished
memories..'
=)
I've
come to learn
that
the road
to
recovery
is indeed
a difficult
but
possible one.
It certainly
helps
when
your
loved
ones
cushion
you
with
love
care
and
concern
after you
have
fallen.
After all
if
the door
closes
you should
be able
to
open
your eyes
to
the
windows
that
still
allows
the
breeze
to
surround
you
;)

The
eyes
will
either
tear
or
twinkle.
I chose
the
latter
one.
=)

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