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~~Tuesday, March 18, 2008~~

1:17 AM

Warning:
Its all produced by the ‘blabberimania’
formed at midnight.
Might include a bit too much of sentimental blabbers
and
‘angeriazasational’ tormentation..
Haha..
so if you already have tons of things
in your mind
and
don’t wanna be bothered by something else,
please don’t read any further.
Thank you.
Have a good day (“,)

‘It feels like planting the seeds
and
watching them bloom
into beautiful roses
over
a period of time..
You can’t describe them properly
till
you go through the emotions yourself..’

Very true indeed..
Life seems to be going on
despite a torrent of things..
It has tremendously changed..
From attending uncles and aunties wedding ceremonies,
it has now become
cousins wedding and friends wedding..
When people from your inner circle start getting hitched,
that’s where the mental clock strikes..
And the voice in the head goes..
’oh boy..am not getting any younger,m I?’
and the voices around you go.
‘whens urs?’
gosh..just as one of the old joke goes,
can we ask that to the ‘oldies’ in a funeral house?
don’t wanna sound sarcastic here
but really,
when we are pushed to the brim
and
made to look like dolls on show case
that’s what I really feel like..
I wouldn't insult genuine affection..
in fact am willing to explain myself
if those who really care about me
demand an explanation..
but to
add salt to injury
and
play around with words indirectly..
totally pisses me off..
Just because of family circumstances
and
their own personal reasons
one chooses to accept whats given to her,
its not necessary another should be pushed to compromise too..
Anyway, its not about being pushed in with eyes blinded
but
moving in with blessings
and
contentment
and
something beyond a sense of security or trust..
Nothing is be perfect
but
there should be something that at least feels right..
After all
Marriage is not about being
An one day grand gala affair..
Its about waking up with a smile and going to bed laughing..
And
even if you have an argument
the person must be witty enough
to stay up long enough to argue..
hehe…ok back to the point..
It gets especially scary
when your closed one starts reminding you
that your ‘time’ is running out..
Grr..
What am I to do
if you come and tell me
''u better find one before one is found for u…''
As I said am not going to compromise..
I have made my decision and I will jolly well stick by it..
heehee..
and
though you are really trying
your best to convince me darling,
I know you will stick
by my side no matter what..
hehe..
coz we have been through
hell and heaven together,
haven't we?
keke..
Oh and talking abt growing up process..
I was really amused by my niece last week..
It just feels like
she was a few weeks baby
and
everything she did was so amazing..
Her first words..first step..
The first song that she learned to hum..
The first song that we sang together
with her hugging me
and
the first time I brought her to the library in that rain..
haha..
I think the rain must love me a lot
for most of the important
moments of my life
have been
accompanied by the rain drops..
Anyway
I still remember the nights
where I sang lullaby or told bed time stories
to my niece
and
the joy of seeing her
drift to sleep was just heavenly..
and now..haha..
the tables have turned..
this time round
SHE was the one
who made me sleep
by her fabulous bed time story..
really I dint know how..
but
I just drifted off to sleep with her
cuddling by me side,
with of course
the rain splashing
against the window panel
outside..
Needless to say,
I woke up with a smile..
Aging might be shitty at times
coz as some say,
with age comes responsibility
or as how
some others put,
with age comes shit!
Haha..
there are moments where
I really thank god for aging
coz theres when
I had the chance of experiencing certain things
that
I certainly would not have known
if I was a child..
Well.. Am being emotional..
hehe..
\but
serious talks with my bestie
for the past few days
have set me thinking about a lot of stuffs…
have a lot more to write
but
I guess I’ll leave it
for
the future..
Just like the answers to the questions that have been left hanging in the air..
‘ there is a phrase called once upon a time that makes you listen..there is a reason coz it makes you live, laugh and love for the moment.. ‘

=)Take Care(=
To the some one who said what he said
P.s: I warned you, didn’t I..?
It wasn’t discouraging words
but
words that were supposed to save you
from falling deeper..
once again m sorry..

=)Expect The Unexpected(=Reality Vs Dream =)Take Care(=

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