அவனுக்கு வலிகள் தெரியவில்லை..

அவளுக்கு வழியும் புரியவில்லை..

இனி பாதை பிரிந்து போகும்.. 

கதையும் தனித்து இரண்டு ஆகும். . 

இதுவே வாழ்க்கை என்று சொல்ல. .

 காலம் மூன்றும் கடந்து போகும்.. 

எனினும் இந்த நிமிடம் ஒன்றே போதும்..

 பெண்ணின் இதய துடிப்பும் கதறும். . 

இந்த ஜன்மம் போதும் போதும்..

தொடர் கதை தொடரும்.. 

தொடர்ந்து போகும். .. 

அவளின் 

ஆயுள் 

முழுதும்..

முழுதும்..

முப்பொழுதும்..

Bye 2012..
Welcome 2013!
Wow..
Indeed amazing to think back that
2012 sprinted by too quickly!!
Cant even grasp the events that took place..
Astonished on how quickly changes can take place..
After nearly 6 months of baby sitting,
She's getting back to work..
Gosh..Nervous..
May the Almighty guide her through..
Focus and confidence is gonna be her mantra for the time being..
and of course patience as well..
Too many  dear ones occasions for coming up
and she really needs to juggle task and be on her toes
to do a excellent job for them!
Jan 19: Rasheed wedding..
March is filled with bdays!
Ashiq turning 2!
Mubee Turning 13!
Hasinah's turning 21!!
and then theres Nas darlings wedding and reception in May!!
Wohoo..
I love to be occupied.
May all GO well!!
I am gonna Live life to the fullest..In Sha Allah.. Treasure whaT U have while its still there..Cherish each moment..Walk away when you'r furious..Avoid throwing words..Let your dearies know you care..Random acts do make peoples day better..All in all, lets dua for a rocking great year ahead filled with love care and concern!! :) Happy 2013 Darlings!!!!!!

To Who ever is reading this..x

Why should

 a random stranger

 waste his/her time

?

A Sandcastle..

The Turtle Won The Race..

In Sha Allah.. 

:)

Its so difficult to supress tears 

when theyre threatening to spill out..

On the verge..

Pathetic..

Frustration..

The needle waiting to burst the balloon..

Just need a towel..

and she will gag herself and sob..

Dont ask  her why!

If you dont dare provide a shoulder,

dont you dare question her..

No ones worth it..

Sometimes distancing oneself from someone

hurts like hell..

and getting used to someones presence hurts too..

Whatever.

Life just seems to thornish..

It would have better if things were just the way it was..

lonely but she was used to it..

Why make her crave more..

YOU're cruel..

Yes..YOU..

really..

whoever feels guilty now..

All of you are responsible..

INCLUDING HERSELF..

KARMA awaits..

HAHA..

Be Happy When I Smile..

Beware When I laugh..

;)

Sometimes in life..

We tend to take alot of things for granted..

It may not seem like a big treasure 

when its in our hands..

But the moment it slips off..

The world shatters..

Be glad for lil lil things

and take a moment

before reacting to anything..

Unless of course its an emergency..

Please be appreciative

for everything that you have 

this very moment

as it may not be yours the very next moment..

Most of the times..

For the way we behave,

we dont really deserve the blessings

in disguise!

Be contented that you go to bed

every night and

wake up the very next morning.

Be delightful 

that someone bothers to argue with you

over matters that you would nt even want to bother

coz the person cares so much abt you to stay

despite facts and figures at times.

Be thankful for the food 

that is being prepared for you

even if its a bit salty or sweet or tasteless..

The concern matters..

Be glad for the sudden hugs, unexpected kisses

and delightful surprises.

Thank Allah at least once a day..

It might really enlighten you once in a lifetime at least.. 

A Month of home babysitting

is succesfully over..

After two months

it will be time to think 

abt the next step in the career

potion of life..

For now that seems like 

the biggest portion 

in her life

as all the others 

are either missing

rocky 

or 

just gone..

Her weird compilation

of dreams

have been occurring

like some drama serial..

Freaking her much..

Really hope its just

some passing cloud..

Wild imagination..

Nothing else.

Cross fingers..

Well

one thing is for sure

the dream where 

some 'significant'

event will happen in 

october

coz She doesnt want in 

September

is highly possible 

to be what it is..

Just a DREAM..

With just two to three months,

in btw 

She doesnt think 

anything like that could be possible..

So PHEW!

To have a status change just like

snapping your fingers 

is OH BOY CRAZY!

the question of if she will dare to do it or not

and at this point her closed one 

might be smirking at her

is a highly NO..

After all that trials and tribulations..

All the sufferings seen from others..

Why make the same mistake..

read somewhere 

that you cant make 

ALL

the mistake in the whole universe by 

yourself

and thats why 

we are created as a bunch.

To learn from other people's

MISTAKE..

May sound cruel..

BUT HELLO..

She's not asking you to do it

so that she can learn.

If you closed eyes and

jump into a well 

filled with puddle

she can only stand and watch

and pray to HIM..

Especially when

she doesnt know swimming.

you know..

Its something like that..

Ookie..

As crazy as it seems..

She thinks 

shes over the stage

of wanting things

to happen 

coz she wants a escape route..

If its gonna happen..

It will

and it should happen for the right reason...

Not expecting 

a prince charming

in a white horse

or 

a white Jaguar

as gals 

nowadays say..

Shes just praying for 

an understanding soul

who is not gonna condemn her

for the decisions taken..

and for where 

how and who she is now..

Too much to ask?

Not sure..

When He Strides in..

She will know the answer.

=D

 The beginning of a beautiful month..

RAMADAN..

The month of steadfast fasting 

The month of discipline..

The month of blessings..

The month of forgiveness..

The month of patience..

The month of sacrifice..

The month of giving..

The  month of beauty..

Where sharing and caring pours out from all pours..

Lets us continue this throughout..

Insha Allah!

and 

May ALLAH shower his mercy and blessings upon us..

Its such a fruitful month.

Lets all bask in its warmth.

=))

PALPITATIONS..

at its best..

forecasting tragedy or random heart complaints..

Time will tell..

INCOMPLETE..

It feels so good to feel the air breeze through the hair..

feeling fresh on the face..

to throw caution to the wind

and just be like that for hours..

Life..

Has been rotating..swirling 

for some  time now..

Reflections have been like the air she breaths..

From where she started..

to where she is now..

It still  feels unclear..

Like a fuzzed up puddle..

Been feeling too sensitive this past few weeks..

Alot of questions and answers that she doesnt want to think about..

But certain questions that rings a bell some where now..

Almighty puts us in a situation where we emerge as a stronger person..

But then again..

She asks herself..

Who is she kidding..

She's running away..

Whenever the questions peek at her..

She closes the door and lets the darkness creep in..

How many days..weeks..or years is it gonna take.

To finally feel that everything is in its right place..

Like how the words fly across the keyboard..

Days and years have rocketed pass..

But the situation remains similar..

its like some karma..

Maybe shes repaying..

seem like an eternity..

When minute things seem to matter alot.

Now even tho it feels like

nothing matters..

It still hurts each and every second..

If you ask her what..

All she has to give you is a blank stare..

for she herself doesnt understand whats wrong..

Does she want someone else to get

entangled in the same webcob..

nah..

save yourself..before its too late..

Dont tell her u miss her when you dont mean it..

Even though it feels nice to hear..

It still hurts that it doesnt mean anything more thn what it is..

Just words..and a means to pass your time..

well the thought process stops here..

We ll see again if the urge come back..

........................................................

Alot of things have been swirling around..

alot of negativity..

and a few positivity..

to show that life still moves on..

and theres not much of a choice for us..

May 3..Lost  my periyappa..

I dont ever ever wanna go thru the situation again..

Not even in my nightmares pls..

Then darling Nas graduated..

Alhamdulilah..

Everything went as well..

more then well =)

wish only the happiness and best for u honey! :)

June 18.. Shall be my last day..AGAIN.. as a ccpe..

As much as my first time at RGPS was sweet..

this was equally sour..

Ill miss my friendly batch tho..

thrio musketeers and the warm big sisters! :(

Do Keep in Touch k.

The long break will then begin..

I ll be babysitting Ashiq for 3 months 

as the maid has to leave..

3 months later..

I have zero idea of what am gonna do..

Am just gonna leave that to ALLAH's will..

okie..This has turned out to be a very boring update blog post..

Sorry peep..

I really have no idea what else I wanna say now..

I mean I have tonnes running in my mind.. but

for once have lost the ability to say it out..

or the matter of fact write it out..

whats the point when no one understands..

Nil..

So I shall run off now..

Oh I FORGOT.. Am going for another

overseas trip with my lovelies this weekend..

02/06/2012 -04/06/2012..

Mom's bday falls on the 3rd..

I rather not be around..really..

Hurts too much..

memories..

Scars..

Getting from bad to worse..

Covering up with a smile is not easy..

The clown hides his tears behind his smiles right..

As simple as it may sound,

All the more its complicated..

She is left

to wonder most of the times..

If its just HER..

or the people around her..

Simple gestures of appreciation..

A sweet smile..

A melodious good morning..

 A warm cosy

hug to say

we are there for each other..

I value you

as much as You value me..

NOTHING..

Is it so difficult to express love..

Shes wandering around..

Really doubtin

the high pssibilty

that only she misses you

THT much..

and you dont..

Whil you happily shop around..

attend functions

and spend time with the other

kid..

theres one here..

forever praying

that you would understand her

as much as she did..

Whenever she got

pushed away..

she got up on her own

and tried again..

everytime

there was a AGAIN..

there was a tear in her heart as well..

Whats the point of lamenting now

when she has totaly gave up..

ALL THOSE

Years of clinging on..

has boiled down to NOTHING..

IT has created a deep scar..

One that can make her hide in the darkness..

That cld make her behave like she doesnt care..

But

She cares more thn she reveals..

She yearns more then she shows..

The wait is getting draggy.

The hope is vanishing...